Bobby Allan Williams - Site Memorial Online

Miss you everyday my brother!
 Love Your
       Sister Renee

Another year,
Another tear-
And smile,
For what we had-
And what you gave us.
Everyone saw the potential,
Saw what you had to give.
They warmed themselves by your fire.
You helped them live.
Almost Eight long years ,
Gone by so quickly.
It was hard to see your weakness.
I never saw you sickly.
Were you a rock cracked apart by freezing water?
Or were you the water-
Our hearts the rock?
Still heartbroken if I think.
So I Try to focus on the beauty -
Of your life.
You were always stronger than me.
Yet I would have carried you somehow,
as far as I needed to.
Just to help you out.
If I had another chance.
Yes there are things I would have done.
Just to help you see -
Your future daughter or your son.

I'm a father now- and it's still not possible to see.
The depth of the impact on your parents -
and the grief.
Life is supposed to be beautiful ,
And it's supposed to be long.
I want my kids to outlive me,
It's all still so wrong.
A loss so deep,
And a pain so strong.
I couldn't make sense of it then -
And I can't now.
Sitting in the same place on the beach-
Facing again what I never wanted to see.
I just try to hold on,
to your memory.
A quick flame you lit -
And You helped us see.
I miss you brother
Dear Bobby.

Another year,
Another tear-
And smile,
For what we had-
And what you gave us.
Everyone saw the potential,
Saw what you had to give.
They warmed themselves by your fire.
You helped them live.
Almost Eight long years ,
Gone by so quickly.
It was hard to see your weakness.
I never saw you sickly.
Were you a rock cracked apart by freezing water?
Or were you the water-
Our hearts the rock?
Still heartbroken if I think.
So I Try to focus on the beauty -
Of your life.
You were always stronger than me.
Yet I would have carried you somehow,
as far as I needed to.
Just to help you out.
If I had another chance.
Yes there are things I would have done.
Just to help you see -
Your future daughter or your son.

I'm a father now- and it's still not possible to see.
The depth of the impact on your parents -
and the grief.
Life is supposed to be beautiful ,
And it's supposed to be long.
I want my kids to outlive me,
It's all still so wrong.
A loss so deep,
And a pain so strong.
I couldn't make sense of it then -
And I can't now.
Sitting in the same place on the beach-
Facing again what I never wanted to see.
I just try to hold on,
to your memory.
A quick flame you lit -
And You helped us see.
I miss you brother
Dear Bobby.

Another year,
Another tear-
And smile,
For what we had-
And what you gave us.
Everyone saw the potential,
Saw what you had to give.
They warmed themselves by your fire.
You helped them live.
Almost Eight long years ,
Gone by so quickly.
It was hard to see your weakness.
I never saw you sickly.
Were you a rock cracked apart by freezing water?
Or were you the water-
Our hearts the rock?
Still heartbroken if I think.
So I Try to focus on the beauty -
Of your life.
You were always stronger than me.
Yet I would have carried you somehow,
as far as I needed to.
Just to help you out.
If I had another chance.
Yes there are things I would have done.
Just to help you see -
Your future daughter or your son.

I'm a father now- and it's still not possible to see.
The depth of the impact on your parents -
and the grief.
Life is supposed to be beautiful ,
And it's supposed to be long.
I want my kids to outlive me,
It's all still so wrong.
A loss so deep,
And a pain so strong.
I couldn't make sense of it then -
And I can't now.
Sitting in the same place on the beach-
Facing again what I never wanted to see.
I just try to hold on,
to your memory.
A quick flame you lit -
And You helped us see.
I miss you brother
Dear Bobby.

8/6/14
Known Brother :

Brother we have known
You never were alone.
We were always there.
I know you know now.
We will always miss
We will never dismiss
The love you took with you
And the love you left
You gave more than you took
You could have the wrote the book.
Fine times with you my friend
Fine lines we walked
Like a sunburst
When we talked.
Hoping you would come back
Hoping we could take that walk
Like a lift you were to me
I wish I could have done that for you.
Just sometime before
Everything changed
Some change is good
Some we try to reverse
There was no chorus
At the end of that song
No rhyme
In those final words
I keep listening
Over and over
Listening
I think at times I see
What you mean to me
Then I see more
And more
Do I know and do I see
Did I see
We both wanted to be free
The good times in this life
You are beside me
No doubt about the impact
Like a meteor full of fire
A flash to say the least.
You showed us all
Rising from the east
Like the summer sun
You brought so much for us all
You left and we waited
For another call
It's all been said now
It's all been said loud.
To have known you
To have loved you
I am so proud.

A daughter looks around
Growing older and more keen.
Not sure where
Her father has been.
He would have loved her so
This I hope she knows
He didnt mean to leave
He didnt mean to go.
Seeing her brown eyes.
Her glow he's never seen.
He would have built a bond
The father he could have been.
The gift of a child.
Could have lifted him above
Could have saved him from trouble
Saved him with love.
An accident he left.
While she was still in the womb.
I know the fatherly joy
I know he left too soon.
The love he could have delivered
The wonderful man he was.
He tried so hard to breathe,
When rain gave way to floods.
Timing could not have been more wrong,
If he just stayed a little longer.
If he was just able to meet her,
Surely he'd have grown stronger.
His ailments got to him,
They finally got him down.
He tried to keep his breath,
That night alone he drowned.
Now only his angel will guard her,
We hope they stay close beside.
Angelic fatherly figure,
Watching each stride.
Let her know he's there,
Sounds of birds in the air.
And stories of him we know,
With her we will share.

Love you Bob.....May peace be with you...Josh

Dear Uncle Bob and Aunt Violet,

I wanted to call you guys today and the last couple days but I was hesitant to overwhelm you in any way. I am truly sorry to hear of your mother's passing, Uncle Bob. She has always been such a beautiful woman inside and out, and has always been so dear to me- and everyone else in our family. I have nothing but the fondest memories of her.

Her passing is so close to today, the anniversary of Bobby's passing, and so close to the expected birthday (tomorrow) of my son, Lucas Robert. I'm not sure how to tie it all in but the world definitely speaks to us in mysterious ways. And if I have learned anything from losing loved ones in my life, it is that they never truly die. Their spirit is reborn daily in the memories we cherish and continue to share with those still around us. They also continue to live on in the way they have impacted us as human beings. There is no doubt in my mind that I would not be who I am today if not for the impact Bobby had on me as a person. And the stories I carry on about Bobby, you can bet that Luke will certainly hear those as he grows. And he will know why his middle name is Robert. I wanted you to know that I am thinking of you guys and that I love you very much, and I will let you when Luke-Bob arrives.

Love, Josh

Bob, Violet, Tammy, Kerri and Renee,
I am so very sorry and saddend to hear Bobbi's passing.  It's not suppose to be this way
and I would never have thought this could happen to such a woderful family.  I think of you often not knowing the pain you have endured, my heart goes out to all of you.  I can only hope that you have found comfort in your memories of Bobby, the pictures speak a thousand words and also comfort in your friends and family.  I will pray that God continues to give you strenght to be that happy family you always were.
All my love,
Mary

Bobby,
You appeared in another dream recently, and everything was as clear as day. Although I didn't ask (all that mattered was that you were back), you explained where you had been for so long, and at that moment, in my dream, everything made sense-you explained it all. And I was thinking, only you could have pulled this one off; disappeared for so long, then came right back to explain to everybody why you were gone. Only you... We were laughing and drinking like no time had passed, reaching into the freezer for the coldest ones....In that dream, I felt such a warm relieving comfort. Like all those tears had been cried in vain, and a blissful joy returned again. Your smile warmed us all in the room, again. Your presence was so sought after for so long, and you were so missed, that to have you before us again was the most beautiful dream come true. I kept thinking, "of course, I should have known, Bobby had a plan and he would explain it all." As you always do.

Unfortunately I awoke within an internal emotional race of thoughts, all trying to scramble to the surface for the first breath of air. And once again, nothing made sense. Emotions surrounding your loss are torn and tattered and not offering a reasonable explanation. There is none as far as I am concerned; but does that mean I should stop looking? All I know is that I miss you brother and there are so many things I want to share with you here; now, and into the future...This world was just more beautiful with you in it...

With so much love for you on your birthday and forever,
Josh

Bobby A Williams

 

Have you ever wondered what makes the wind blow?
Could it be our loved ones blowing us a kiss?

Have you ever wondered what makes the stars shine?
Is it our loved ones keeping watch over us while we sleep?

Have you ever wondered what makes the skies cry?
Could it be our loved ones missing us?

Have you ever wondered what makes the sun shine?
Is it our loved ones giving us a warm hug?

Have you ever wondered what makes the ocean waves come pounding to shore?
Could it be our loved ones wanting to touch us once more?

There are so many of natures wonders and do we really know why?
Is there a higher power making sure we always remember the loved one we’ve lost and shall never forget.

DEAR JOSH & FAMILY,

I WAS SO SAD TO HEAR ABOUT THIS.  MAY YOU FIND COMFORT AND PEACE IN KNOWING HIS SPIRIT LIVES ON. YOUR POETRY IS SO BEAUTIFUL, THIS IS A VERY NICE TRIBUTE TO HIM. HOPE EVERYTHING GETS BETTER. ALL THE BEST!

LOTS OF LOVE, SUZANNE

I still do not understand.

And I can’t act like I do.

Why are the best people taken?

Beautiful people like you.

Your face is in my mind,

Your eyes bright as ever,

Your wit lives on,

You were always so clever.

I still think you might show up,

Maybe late night at my door

I still think we might have more time,

Even just a little more…

It is not any easier to grasp,

The thought you have left for good.

It is the difference between the way it is,

And the way I thought it would be.

Photos bring you closer for a moment,

Then reality sets in.

I know things could have gotten better,

This isn’t the way it should have been.

You have meant so much to me,

I always looked up to you.

Your brilliance always warmed me.

Many doors you walked me through.

Everything doesn’t happen for a reason,

Because you would still be here.

There is no grand plan,

Because we still need you here.

You may never truly know,

How many cared for you so much.

It is absolutely amazing,

The depth of your touch.

I never gave up on you,

This you had to know.

I always saw you getting stronger,

I never thought you would go.

We are all crazy,

We all have pain.

It could have been anybody,

I must ask why again.

OUR TEARS HERE WOULD OVERFILL ANY OCEAN, WE LOVE YOU BOB

 

 

 

More hear the news,
Day by day.
They thought they'd see you again,
It won't be quite that way.
More tears each day,
They will never stop.
Another ode to you,
Everything you brought.
Songs to refer to,
Sounds never stop.
Beautiful songs with you,
Why'd it have to stop?
You touched so many here,
This is not news,
You left us behind,
Broken and bruised.
I know you left all you could,
You could have stayed longer.
You still had more to offer,
Help make us stronger.
You truly lived like a star,
Too bright to hold.
Every day mattered,
You never grew old.
Come back once more,
We all plee.
Let your smile once again,
Set us free.
SO MUCH LOVE FOR YOU DEAR BROTHER.

To the Whole Williams Family....

   I am so sorry for the loss of Bobby. With the New Year almost here, everybody looks back over the last year and thinks of things. it almost seems like hearing of Bobby's passing is the first thing I think about. I have not seen or spoke to oyu guys in so long. I see Kerri around (usually at soccer) and always ask about you all. Although it has been so long, it seems like just yesterday I was running around with Renee. The majority of all my memories growing up usually involve your family and Bobby. You were all such a huge part of my life that I feel like I had lost a relative. The Williams family may have lost a member, but the one thing that you can look at and make you feel proud when you hold your head up to see Bobby, is that you have such a close family. Most families are not as strong and as close as you all are. You all have done something right, so no matter how hard it gets and how much it hurts, you know that you have each other, and you also welcomed in soooo many of us around here and when we were young. You guys have no idea how many people you truly have out here praying for you guys and Bobby. You all and Bobby have affected alot of people thru the years, and the love will all come back to you!!!!!!!! Please all take care of yourselves.......Renee...it has been so great to be in contact with you!!!! I love and miss you guys.....

You are all so special to me. There isn't a moment that goes by that I am not thinking of you and wishing you strength this holiday season. I know that Bobby is with us every day, silently guarding. While we won't all be together this Christmas, my spirit is with you all. I love you Auntie Violet, Uncle Bob, Tammy, Kerri and Renee. Merry Christmas.

Bobby you are missed so much especially during this time but I know you are at peace in heaven.  I love you my dear brother!

CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below
With tiny lights like Heaven's stars, reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear
But the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart.
But I am not so far away, We really aren't apart.
So be happy for me, dear ones, You know I hold you dear.
And be glad I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I sent you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above,
I sent you each a memory of my undying love.
After all love is a gift more precious than pure gold.
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do.
For I can't count the blessing or love he has for each of you.
So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear.
Remember, I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year

Another day without the bright spot which is you,

Another day without the grace of your youth.

Another day I think about not seeing you.

Another day I have to think about seeing you...

There is no answer to this,

no answer fits.

There is time to try and help,

The feeling of swimming through kelp.

Still I hear your voice,

the sun appears brighter.

May your voice never grow silent,

You know I will always hear you. 

No time I will forget,

what you meant to me.

You have reached me deeply,

Touched me with beauty.

You graced the earth,

and touched the sky.

 

Bob and Violet. I was so very shocked and saddened to hear about the loss of your dear son, Bobby. All of you have been in my thoughts and prayers. I am truly sorry for your loss.

I am the wind...

I am the rain...

I am the sunlight...

   ... through your windowpane

I am the leaf...

   ... turning brown in the fall

I am the faintest wishper on...

   ...the breeze when you call

I am the snowflakes...

   ... that kisses your cheek

I am the child in the park...

   ...playing hide 'n' go seek

I am the scent of the flowers...

   ...that fills the spring air

I am all around you...

   ...I am everywhere

I'll always be with you...

   ...from this moment on

In your every dance...

   ...your every song

You see when we move on...

   ...we never really die

We become one with nature...

   ...We unify

Take care my precoius ones...

   ...on my passing don't dwell

Remember the love we shared together...

...See you again someday

             All Is Well

 

I love you all

 

KK, My BFF, I am so sorry! I continually read this and can't imagine the pain. You are strong and God will help you through this. I wish I could be there to give you a hug and I wish I could have been there to see Mom and Dad. It's been so long. And my heart aches when ever I think of you which is often. Please know although we are so many miles apart that I am here for you. I am just a phone call away.

Love, Kelly

Dear Bob and Violet:

I have been thinking of your loss and praying that you are finding peace and comfort in your family and our Lord.  Losing a child has to be one of the worst things imaginable and my heart goes out to you both, Kerri, Tammy and Renee.

God Bless you all.

To the Williams family -

 

I don't know if you remember but you took me in for almost a month when I was having problems with family, etc. It was 15 years ago. I remember how close everybody was and how everybody respected each other. I think about that often and know that my family will have the same values and respect. I learned alot from your family. I also learned how to be full of life. Bobby taught me that. He brought the Conejo Valley sway to the mountains. I knew in the first 10 seconds that I first met Bobby that we would be close. There was nothing he could'nt do and I wanted to be a part of it all no matter how much trouble we would get into. I think about Bobby alot and I always smile. His spirit is great. I am so sorry for your loss. I love you.

I am so sad to hear about Bobby.  I have so many memories of your family that are a part of who I am as a mom, a woman and a person.   I actually have a picture of me, Tammy, Kelly and Kerri camping wearing Dolphin shorts with feathered hair on my refrigerator.  Even though I have not seen you all in so many years, I love you and I think of you often. 

 

When ever we get a new pet in our family I think of Bobby when he wanted to name your Dalmatian (Molly right?) “FROGGY”.  I tell that story and nobody laughs but me because I was there part of it and your family was such a huge part of my life.  

 

As a parent, Bob and Violet I am so sorry!  My heart aches for you.  I love and miss you all and I wish I was contacting you for another reason.  I will pray for Bobby and for you -May Jesus hold you and carry you during this time.

 

I love you.  Kim Hollowell –Miroball- Willaballi

 

Bob, Violet, Tammy, Kerri, Renee & Bobby,

Bobby,

When I received the news I was taken back. Thought that my husband miss understood Kerri. All though it has been many years since I last saw you,you were  like a little brother to me. Bobby, I would often ask KK how you were doing. I prayed for you often. Why I ask?!!!!! Why did you have to go so early? My heart is overflowing with saddness for those you left behind. Do me a favor and make sure that Jesus is laying his healing hands on your family for me. They need him know more than ever.

Bob & Violet,

I am so very sorry for your loss. It's not suppose to happen this way! The only thing I can say is that I hope you find peace in knowing he has gone home to be with our heavenly father. I will pray for you all every night that over time your hearts will start to heal. I love you guys!

Love, Kelly

I'm sorry, I am just not sure what to say. Part of the grief I am experiencing comes in waves of empathy. I am just so truly sorry. Ever since my dad called me with the news, all I wanted was to be with you all. I hope we can all get together again soon and share our memories of Bobby, and hopefully make some fond new ones. I love you all so much. You are my family and I hope through Bobby's passing we can remember how truly important it is to be together. It is so imperative that we don't let so much time pass until we see eachother again. I looked into going to Lloyd Meadow this summer, one giant family camping trip. I know Bobby would have really enjoyed that. 

I am also sorry I couldn't find the strength to speak at the service. I wanted to so badly, I have so so many cherished memories of Bobby.

 I love you Auntie Violet, Uncle Bob, Tammy, Kerri, and Renee. You are all constantly in my thoughts and my prayers.

Uncle Bob and Aunt Violet:
I want you to know how wonderful a job you both have done raising your son. You raised such a beautiful man. He had so much spirit, probably so much it killed him. He lived more in his 33 years than most live in a 90 year lifetime. He touched more than most do in a 90 year lifetime. Please do not ever doubt your success in raising Bobby. And I know how grateful he was to have such wonderful parents. Just please remember all of this everyday. For him. I love you both with all of my heart, and thank you for bringing such a wonderful person into this world for all of us to have within our lives and our hearts. ~Your nephew Josh 

A night robber,

came and stole my brother.

There is a void where he stood,

he was like no other.

Your footsteps were always so big,

too big for me to follow.

To know that you are gone,

I just cannot swallow.

You were much too young and beautiful,

with so much still to offer.

How have you left us here?

It's colder without you brother.

Life was too slow for you,

or you were too fast.

The pain knowing you're gone,

is like swallowing glass.

You had so much to offer the world,

everyone you touched surely knows.

You were my idol, my blood, and my friend,

and so the story goes.

I want to talk with you once more,

I never said goodbye.

I'll sit and wait forever for your call,

as if you haven't died.

I have countless memories with you,

each one I'll cherish more than gold.

I can see your face right now,

too beautifully young to go.

It could have been me with your problem,

just as easy as you.

Or we could have grown old together,

and wallowed in our youth.

My children will never meet you,

it hurts me to say.

I would give anything,

for it not to be this way.

You have impacted me so deeply,

we have even shared a home.

We have slept on eachother's couches,

when we would have been alone.

I knew your thoughts before you spoke,

by looking in your eyes.

I've never suffered such a loss,

as the day that you died.

Bobby I wished you found the shore,

from the troubled waters of your sea.

With so many people here waiting,

people who loved you, like me.

I've wanted to call you for days,

Pretended like you'd answer.

You were driving with me again yesterday,

we had a long pleasant conversation.

I didn't ask any questions,

though there's a lot I'd like to know.

If we had one more day together,

There's so much I'd like to share.

Do you know how missed you are,

Will you ever know?

I know of so many,

who would love to show.

Could it change anything,

Which has already been done?

Your whole life you've lived,

such a wonderfully loved one.

The warm sun tapping me on the shoulder,

but the cold won't go away.

There's nothing I wouldn't give,

To have you here with me today.

I still don't accept you're gone,

however unhealthy it is.

My mind is not right,

my thoughts do not fit.

This isn't about me,

though it's difficult to grasp.

How was that Friday night,

your final and last?

After so many nights together,

So much I've learned from you.

Over and over and over,

You were always so true.

 

I LOVE YOU BOBBY.